## remember to hit reload/refresh everytime you come here ## I'm going to change the world for the better or die trying. -Nicholas P. Wilde ----- i was wrong about changing the way prisons are run. i've done my homework and watched a whole mess of prison shows now, and it's clear to me that they give people ten million chances and it's not till they screw up too much or too big that they get sent to the serious prisons. anyway, since thanks giving was just here, i wrote sort of what i'm thankful for. - my life isn't easy. but it's not as bad as it could be either. i have my own apartment, and it's a real apartment instead of living in a rooming house like i was 4 years ago. i live in a country where they have disability for people who can't work and health people to help me recover so that one day i might be able to work and earn my money. my symptoms are gradually slowing down. i used to hear voices every 5 seconds to every 5 minutes. now somedays they almost don't even bug me. i've been making progress getting sleep every night, though i still have troubles like tonight i probably wont be able to sleep because i've a lot on my mind. i'm teaching myself how to write computer code again, a hobby i used to love - but now i could maybe get a work from home job with it if i get good enough. i have an awesome cat, awesome mom and sister, and awesome friends. i've quit many drugs, only smoking a tiny bit of pot every other day now and i just took a major step to even cutting out the pot. at this point i can say yes i like my life. but i earned it. even my mother says she would like me if i was just a person and not her son and that makes me proud.